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Thursday, January 13, 2011

Glitter Guilt

I'm the anti-hero
a neurotic mess
unfortunate that I am
not very ordinary
there is no cure
for what i've got
i let the beast in
so why pretend
sucked the blood from 
those i could
in fuck you suede boots
that walked to hell and back
so what? next time
i'll go barefoot
conjure me an emotion
or a conscience
i'm lost in a world gone mad
tapdance with madness
i'm the ghost who kissed
you 1069 times
before I slit your throat
i meant to do better
but i am always 
misunderstood
why do you hate me
for knowing the truth
now i am soul sick
and forgotten


sb

Who?

Who are you trying to impress?
Just noise
Lacking order
No real color or taste
{so what are you doing?}
Shades of your twisted tongue
on/off, hot/cold, go/come
Lies all shiny
Wannabe for brotherhood
With fuck you overtones
Porn shot through view
Sleazy low rent
Motel rooms
Thinking about
Cops, snitch, and FBI
Oh my!
Going in circles
Head conflicted body
Numb to difference
Of truth and lies
Brain rotted
Your fried
Just how
Did you become
Such a mess
You have sucked
The meat, blood and juice
From the bone
Tasted the flesh
Afraid to be alone
I know
People and chemicals
The stink of intensity
Aftertaste of intimacy
I want to be
Who I am
Or die
But not you
So who are you
Trying to impress?

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Jagged Skies

On the apocalyptic beach of tomorrow
A girl cut her toe on broken glass
Once sea worn by the sea varied shades of blue and green
The white sands tarry black crushed shells
Now shards of metal
The crustaceans drunkenly side dance
Brown sludge foam
Blows heavily on the wrecked shore 
Where she bleeds
A lone figure--so rare 

to be seen
The thunder of laughter here once
Now totally gone
As life that once existed
She longed for something unknown
Un-named and unspoken
Real just the same
She walks on the shore of broken bone
Collecting for her pocket
Nothing
The reverence of this stirs ancient things
Hope whispers
The ghost of humanity breathing in her soul



                                                        sb 2011

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Monsters

I know that monsters are real 

because they live inside my me.
I can't stop moving
my mind I'm losing
I never believe the things
that I see
I'm redeemed by the demons in my dreams
My soul is full
of crazy wicked things
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Hey Monster
They say your sexy
A real manhunter

Beautiful Monster
I see you looking at me

So Monster
What do you see?
A girl who maybe drank
Too much liquor?

Beautiful Monster
Why aren't you smiling?

Neither am I
Monster--
Are you hating me?
And do you concur
Your just like me
Why must you lure
Them into your world
If your not happy? Maybe you'd prefer
To not be a Monster
And just be her?

If you weren't my reflection
Would you still be a Monster
Or just me?

Thursday, December 9, 2010

This

This                                       
This is
Her soul into which your looking
Scarred by the storms of her life
Which protected 
What's inside
Cosmic stars
Glitter Horizons
Psychic Vampires
That wanted her mind
Tried to make her a victim
Clever defelection
Bloodlust lies
Clinging to something beautiful
Butterfly Blue Skies
Zodiac warrior floating
To an infinite orgasmic nexxus
Insanity the cruel razor slicing
Forever ripping her soul
Releasing the ghost
The ghost of her
Her ghost is seen
The ghost inside
The ghost that haunts her mind
Ghosts haunt her mind
                                         I am
Your ninja bad ass
your ancient indian chief
your suicide kiss
your philosophy on stupidity
your orgasm in sleazy
smoking poetry
and wicked fucking
while peaking
your moral compass
death whispering
diamonds lust
shimmery glowing 
thats all inside 
her mind

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Hater
Your not my friend, you always bring me down
It’s a dead end, and your a fucking clown
You invade my life-
Twist everything around turn my world black
Quattuordecillion of thoughts
Your beginning to make me crack
Chemical imbalance my nerves taught
From the battles, bloodbath of war in zodiac
You threaten me scream your ugly names
While I am holding a knife are you insane
Your throat I wish to slit
Just stop your sick games
You think your a hero and I am a misfit
Want to watch as my knife cuts your skin
Though you made the first cut
What you’ve done to my soul the true sin
Whore, spread your legs, trailer trash, slut
The words that echo through my head
Crystalline fragments of pride
I know it won’t stop until one of us is dead
Set me up on your video camera
Now you threaten me with more lies
Radical concept but your the real hater
I only seek to defend myself and I despise
The role you cast me — trying to make me look bad
Where’s your honor, your integrity, your sad
Your hypocrisy knows no limit
Game over , I’m finished
Going to sit here and smoke a cigarette
Pick myself up again I’ve learned
Keep calm, stay cool, no need to fret
I can’t change a fool
It only adds more fuel
To your insanity
So, fuck it, I will die young and look pretty
We’re Fucked
I don’t need a friend
Fuck the world— I need a drink
Damn it!
Fuck through the pain
Because life hurts
The world is burning down
Smell the smoke?
The bodies burning?
What to do
Pour gasoline over my head
Smoke a cigarette
It’s not over
Til we are all dead