Glitter Guilt

I'm the anti-hero

a neurotic mess

unfortunate that I am

not very ordinary

there is no cure

for what i've got

i let the beast in

so why pretend

sucked the blood from 

those i could

in fuck you suede boots

that walked to hell and back

so what? next time

i'll go barefoot

conjure me an emotion

or a conscience

i'm lost in a world gone mad

tapdance with madness

i'm the ghost who kissed

you 1069 times

before I slit your throat

i meant to do better

but i am always 

misunderstood

why do you hate me

for knowing the truth

now i am soul sick

and forgotten

sb

Who?

Who are you trying to impress?
Just noise
Lacking order
No real color or taste
{so what are you doing?}
Shades of your twisted tongue
on/off, hot/cold, go/come
Lies all shiny
Wannabe for brotherhood
With fuck you overtones
Porn shot through view
Sleazy low rent
Motel rooms
Thinking about
Cops, snitch, and FBI
Oh my!
Going in circles
Head conflicted body
Numb to difference
Of truth and lies
Brain rotted
Your fried
Just how
Did you become
Such a mess
You have sucked
The meat, blood and juice
From the bone
Tasted the flesh
Afraid to be alone
I know
People and chemicals
The stink of intensity
Aftertaste of intimacy
I want to be
Who I am
Or die
But not you
So who are you
Trying to impress?

Jagged Skies

On the apocalyptic beach of tomorrow

A girl cut her toe on broken glass

Once sea worn by the sea varied shades of blue and green

The white sands tarry black crushed shells

Now shards of metal

The crustaceans drunkenly side dance

Brown sludge foam

Blows heavily on the wrecked shore 

Where she bleeds

A lone figure--so rare 

to be seen

The thunder of laughter here once

Now totally gone

As life that once existed

She longed for something unknown

Un-named and unspoken

Real just the same

She walks on the shore of broken bone

Collecting for her pocket

Nothing

The reverence of this stirs ancient things

Hope whispers

The ghost of humanity breathing in her soul

                                                        sb 2011